Nevermore Everless

                                      NEVERMORE EVERLESS My body was still like a hawk's nest in the dead of winter. My mind was consumed by the tempest of negativity. I thought of all the times I wasn't understood, the times I wasn't heard. It was a summer morning. I remember this day as though it was yesterday. I was six, dressed in all white with a floral apron tied back into a neat bow hanging to my knees. I remember our art teacher, KP, who had instructed us to draw a star representing our hopes and aspirations for our newly started grade, Grade 2.  My pencil glided smoothly across the sheet of paper, carefully aligning all the points of the star. I was delighted, my star looked perfect. She was waiting for everyone to finish drawing. My hands were itching to start colouring, I just couldn't wait for the instructions. So, I threw open the lid of my new wax crayons revealing a variety...

                            NEVERMORE EVERLESS I reached the scooter stand just before the final bell rang. I peeled away my helmet, dumped it in the boot of my scooter and bolted towards the main entrance making it just in time. I held onto the strap of my bag as I walked through the crowded corridors of the school. I could hear my footsteps echoing even though many students were there bustling about, laughter accompanying them.  I navigated my way past them in a hurry to get into the classroom before the teacher arrived. I entered the classroom and my peers said 'Fancy seeing you all cheery in the morning. Must've been a great morning!' with a smirk on their faces. 'It really was a great morning and it is going to be a great day too!' my voice felt lighter than usual as my words slipped out of my mouth faster than I had anticipated. I then turned and went to my desk before they could shoot me with questions I c...

                  NEVERMORE EVERLESS  "......and then at the end of the series, he steals the blue French horn for her again and shows up at her window AGAIN just like he did after their first date and they end up together!" he said, passionately explaining the storyline of his favourite TV show. I listened keenly as his enthusiasm progressively increased. But one question kept popping up in my head - how does he expect me to watch it after telling me the entire storyline and everything that happens? It simply wouldn't be fun that way. But I didn't ask him that, I let it go because he was so happy and that would just be mean. "WHOA! That is a sweet ending, It's too bad his wife died but at least he got to be with his first love in the end" I replied "YEAH you should totally watch it, it has 9 seasons but you will enjoy it thoroughly, I can assure you that" he added, his enthusiasm levels reaching the sky. He told me to add it to my Watch...

                   NEVERMORE EVERLESS "'The sunset is lovely, isn't it?' he said as he gazed into my chocolate brown eyes, "And so are you" he added. The warm wind blew, and my hair flew into my eyes before I could tie it back into a bun; summer was approaching. As the evening settled, we perched on the rooftop railing sipping cool canned Cokes. Laughter and conversation flowed freely between us, Oh! how I loved spending time with him like that. I let the sadness consume me as the realisation set in. The realisation that this happiness was just momentary. Something about our friendship told me that it wasn't going to last forever. So I told myself "Don't get attached" over and over again, I knew it would harm me, and I knew it wouldn't be good for me, yet I did it because sometimes even when you know something is wrong, you must make that mistake to really know if it is a mistake or not so that you don't go your entire life wondering...