One

                  NEVERMORE EVERLESS

"'The sunset is lovely, isn't it?' he said as he gazed into my chocolate brown eyes, "And so are you" he added. The warm wind blew, and my hair flew into my eyes before I could tie it back into a bun; summer was approaching. As the evening settled, we perched on the rooftop railing sipping cool canned Cokes. Laughter and conversation flowed freely between us, Oh! how I loved spending time with him like that. I let the sadness consume me as the realisation set in. The realisation that this happiness was just momentary. Something about our friendship told me that it wasn't going to last forever. So I told myself "Don't get attached" over and over again, I knew it would harm me, and I knew it wouldn't be good for me, yet I did it because sometimes even when you know something is wrong, you must make that mistake to really know if it is a mistake or not so that you don't go your entire life wondering if it really was a mistake. Errr a "fun" fact about me - I overthink freakishly a lot and I try to find patterns in people's behaviours and then I ask them a few questions to figure out their way of thinking and their personality, also I have a tendency to say a lot of random things and oversharing when we initially meet. However, I like to believe in people, I give them time to acknowledge their mistakes and chances to change themselves.

We met at school when a big group of people (friends and friends of friends) were playing hide and seek and we both were the denners. I saw him and the way he talked, I saw him and I saw myself in him. The version of me that I hadn't turned out to be because I was lucky enough to find the right set of friends but looking at him made me realise that not everyone is lucky enough and that's when I knew that I wanted to be that friend for him; the one he could rely on no matter what and the one he could talk to about anything, the friend that he could show his vulnerable side to but I didn't act on it. 

Months later, we crossed paths while I was in a hurry and I accidentally tipped over his canned Coke. The following afternoon, I found myself in the store nearby purchasing a can of Coke, then I walked to the park hoping to find him - the guy with bouncy dark curls coming down to his forehead contrasting with his cheeks as pink as a summer sunset while his rectangular glasses accentuated his sharp features - to replace his beverage. I found him sitting with earphones plugged in, his neck resting on the backrest of the granite bench and his eyes focused on the fast-moving ever-changing clouds. I, then, advanced to the bench and my sudden movement may have startled the guy; he sat upright and moved to the corner of the bench. "Sorry, didn't mean to startle you like that, I-" I lost track of my thoughts as I looked into his soft dreamy eyes, shortly after that I brought myself to reality and finished my sentence "I brought you this because I tipped over yours earlier. I'm sorry, I was in a hurry, and was getting late for a project meeting." He smiled through his eyes and I saw a shimmer of light in them, had he been crying? did I interrupt something? I shouldn't have come, this was clearly the wrong time or was I overimagining stuff? "That's alright, you didn't have to get me another one. Mistakes happen," he said. He spoke in a hoarse whisper, a voice clearly strained from coughing; his words were filled with warmth and so was his presence. "I have a cold anyway, it was probably for the best." he continued and that explained his glass eyes and hoarse voice. 

He invited me to sit next to him and I was hesitant at first but then I thought to myself 'Oh what the hell, it's time to make new friends already.' I took a seat next to him and we talked about the kind of TV shows we watch, the music we listen to, the kind of books we read (he doesn't read and I occasionally enjoy murder mysteries) and all of that. I'd say that he was quite surprised when I told him that I listen to both, Taylor Swift and Kanye West. He talked about one of his favourite TV shows and the kind of TV shows that people enjoy also says quite a bit about the kind of people they are, but I hadn't watched that show so now I had to watch that in order to know more about him.  

Until the next chapter

xoxo